i need to stop falling for people that live a million miles away from me. UghHHHh.
I went to the doctors quite some time ago (I haven’t even told my own family about this yet) and I was diagnosed with depression. Thanks to the weird kids that think it’s trendy to have mental illnesses my problem is often downplayed by others.
Seriously though I have lost interest in everything I care about and it is back to the point where I no longer eat, this happened to me a long time ago and once again I survive off of random snacks, mainly junk food. I often can’t sleep or sometimes I sleep way too much, I don’t have any energy and I find myself crying because of no reason at all. I have stupid suicidal thoughts which I would do anything to get rid of. Depression really eats away at you and completely destroys who you are, it is not a fun time and I would not wish something like this upon anyone. I don’t like going out, I can’t make any effort and because of this anyone that makes an effort with me loses interest and never talks to me again. It is not my fault I constantly bail on things and suck at talking to people.. I don’t know what to do anymore this really sucks.
Somebody bring me food and flip my record over for me so I don’t have to get out of bed anymore.
it’s a weird feeling not knowing 99% of the people that claim to hate you.
if you were at a party and you told the person you were dating that there’s a dude there who keeps trying to touch you and is being really inappropriate and they replied “just go with it” you’d probably dump them too right?
just letting everyone that i’m going to meet in the future know that i am about 5’1” and i have heard every short joke there is and no i am not a midget i’m technically border line midget and yes i did play basketball and no i wasn’t too short. yes i am too short for most over priced rides at fair grounds, who’s winning there? me, not really. it’s the main thing i’m insecure about so please try and not tease me about it constantly. weirdly enough i do realize i’m short and don’t need you to tell me! woo
